I’m Trying, Honestly….

Okay!  I am back.  I was gone.  I was gone for a really long time.  The last thing I posted was in March of 2017.  My bad.  I AM SORRY.  It was a rough year, okay!?

Some quick updates/explanations:

  • I lost my job and was unemployed for basically all of 2017.  It sucked, it came out of the blue, I still don’t really understand why, and creative juices really dry the fuck up when you are in your late 20s and your parents have to pay for everything again.
  • My laptop broke!  This was one of the bigger reasons.  Some stupid hacker got my laptop and locked me out of my own laptop and I gave my laptop to my beau Scott and to fix and I just didn’t have a functional laptop for like 4 months.  And I tried writing posts on my Kindle, it wasn’t for me.  However, this “nicely” (you’ll see the reason for the quotation marks in a second) lead into the next biggie…
  • Scott and I parted ways.  And it sucked.  And if I’m being honest, random people on the internet and maybe a few coworkers who I gave my card to (I’m trying to be legit here, people!), every time I even thought of writing something, break-up melancholy would seep into my soul and no one wants to read that.  But you will!  Because I need to get it fully out of my system and oh the fuck well, don’t read it if it doesn’t float your boat.
  • I got a new job!  And a full time one at that!  Look at me, being a whole, actual functional adult and member of society with health insurance and shit!  However, my full time job, which I LOVE, involves staring at a screen all day and I just haven’t had it in me to open up my private laptop after work and stare at another.  But I’m going to try to.  Because I love writing.  (And they encourage us to basically use small words at work for our notes and if you know Musique23, you know that I do enjoy my verbose vocab.  Why use one word when you can use four?!)

So, that’s been what’s up.  Again, sorry non-existent readers for abandoning you.  But I have had some experiences over the past year and I am going to try to get back on it and grow this more.  A lot of people don’t know this, but I’m trying to turn this into my legitimate side hustle.  I want more readers, I want to own this blog outright, I want other people to hire me to write stories/essays for them, I want authors to think “Yes, that young lady is brilliant and thoughtful and funny and I would love to hire her to edit my own work.”  (I would also like for book people who scour the web for bloggers such as myself who have had novels in the works since they were like 12 to find me and offer me a nice check cause I am ready to sit Sallie Mae down and talk to that hussy about our relationship.  Just saying…)

So bear with me.  And read what drips out of my head, through my blood and out of my fingers.  (That was horrible.  Just awful.  But I have a BA and not a BS in Psych and I don’t feel like thinking of a better visual for the creative process.)  And hopefully, I’ll make you laugh, make you feel, and soon enough, make you sing my praises.

Thanks,

Musique23

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